I am still trying to figure out what I want to do next year. Do I continue to do everything in my power to find a teaching job? A job that I will be the low man on the totem pole for the next few years and will be in danger of losing my job at the end of every school year. Do I continue to pursue my dream in hopes that it will continue to get better and better? Oh, I just don't know. All I know is that I love working with kids, so I will continue to do that in some way. I am interviewing to be a developmental therapist this week. Another job that involves kids that I think I would love. We will see.
I do know this much. Duane has a great job so no matter what happens next year we will be just fine. I know that we are much luckier than lots of other people in this country and world and for that I am very thankful. I often think about people throughout the world that have so little and think to myself, why did God choose to throw so many blessings my way? Despite these feelings I know that God has always provided for us and I know he will continue to do so. Right now I am just praying that God guide me in the right direction. I want to do what he wants me to do, and nothing else. I am trying not to worry about it, because that is not going to do any good. I just need to be patient (ha, I am so not patient) and let this play out. After all, God already knows what I am going to do and in that I find a lot of peace.
This verse always brings me peace since I am ALWAYS worrying!
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
Thanks you for letting me get my thoughts out in the open. I'm sure Duane is glad I did it, considering he's had to listen to me go on and on about this for the last few weeks! What a great husband! :)